Which was better... Thanksgiving or Black Friday?

To me, Thanksgiving was good... Black Friday was great. Kinda sad, but definitely how I felt this year. Aaron had Lillian on Thanksgiving till 2pm, then I picked her up from Grandma Susans and we took off for the farm. The only people we were missing there were Lance and Amy.
I can't imagine how loud it would be if there were like 4 more kids in my grandparents house on a holiday. I think everything would be broken, and it would be so loud.... But you know what? No matter how loud and crazy everyone is, Papa sits in his rocking chair and watches basketball like there is not a stampede of 1-10 year olds trampling through his house...

 Lilly and her kitties :)

 Lillian dressed papa up like this, and he sat and watched basketball like this for like 45 minutes.. hahaha <3

 ty and Lilly painted :)

 Christmas card? hahaha

Grandma and I : ):)

We left The farm about 7:30 then when I got home Lilly went to sleep at my parents house and I went home. Kim came over at like 9 and we got ready for midnight shopping at Old Navy!
Okay, so you know like when something happens and you get so mad but know you will laugh about it later... way later. That happened. I was in such a hurry to get out and watch hundreds of people stampede into Old Navy that I locked my keys in the car!!!!!!!!!!!
Like me telling this story doesn't even do justice for how funny/messed up/annoying the situation was! Luckily, I was texting Kylin and stuff and he volunteered to be our driver for the rest of the night!
We had a great time, and laughed so much in the hours between midnight and 6 am that I have a horse voice.
I was freaking out over my car, I didn't want to pay like 40 buck (or 60) to have my car unlocked! pissed! haha, so I ran into Sandy from school at the mall, and I told her what happened and a friend that she was with said that she could do it no problem as long as I got her a wire hanger. So, we went to Ky's house and he got her a hanger.. she tried for like an hour and she just couldn't get it.
SO, I had to call a locksmith. $60, down the drain................................................
Anyways, it happens I guess. I wish I could write down all the details of Black Friday, but I am so tired and hungry I can't even think straight. All I know was it was amazing, and I laughed way to much. hahah
IT'S KIM'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAYA!

 Kim in the tool section of sears at 4 in the morning.... Kylin was getting some stuff.. ahha

BLACK FRIDAY & KIM'S BIRTHDAY!

horoscopes

Isn't it eerie when your horoscope is like dead on? I know that most of the time horoscopes are written vaguely and use certain words that every Sam, Joe, and Harry can relate too.. but it always throws me off when it fits perfectly into my life.
I also love that you can read your horoscope anywhere, the newspaper, a magazine, a website, an astrology book, and they will all be different. It's like hey, I better choose wisely which Source I'm going to read today. The newspaper might say my love horoscope is there is a dark presence in the future of your relationship with someone you care really deeply about. and the website might say love will come knocking so keep your eyes open. You better choose what you read wisely, it might just influence what you're outlook on life will be for the rest of the day.
Since I think that horoscopes are a joke I will give you my little "thought" of the day:
Roses are definitely important, but realize that they can't bloom unless they have a nice bed of fertile earth to live in. Deal with reality. <3 <3 <3

Did Chelsi's hair today! Turned out absolutely amazing and looked great on her!

 BEFORE ^^

AFTER ^^
Thanks giving is tomorrow... be thankful, for whatever struggle you are going through right now.. someone else is going through something worse.

happiness is only real when shared.

FRIDAY at school there was a woman and a little girl around the age of three that got to the salon at about 10 o'clock. She was a Native American with thick, black, beautiful, long, hair and she wanted "Jessica Simpson" hair.
Around 11 am I went up to the little girl and asked her what her name was and was being friendly, I'm good with kids, but she wouldn't even look at me. I left her alone, I didn't think that she could talk.
I went about taking appointments and working on my own business. I went on lunch around 12:30. When I got back out to the clinic floor the little girl was STILL just sitting there.. I walked up to Lori, Kayla, Brittney, Alysa, Katie, Kara.. (anyone who would listen) and displayed my concern for the little girl. I am a mom, I worked in a daycare for a year, and I couched track and I have NEVER seen a little girl sit so still and look so sad. I was worried. I also couldn't figure out where the little bag of snacks, sippy cup, coloring books, babies, and dolls were.. I mean everyone mom carries those things around for there baby girl. Around 3 o'clock it was getting ridiculous....
*side note: the lady she was swith was still at the salon because like I said she had black hair to her butt and wanted to be "Jessica Simpson" Blonde. That doesn't happen in 2 hours. *
...I went up to Sandy, who was doing the lady's hair, and asked what the deal was with the girl. Sandy told me this was the first time that the lady has ever seen the girl, some co-worker asked her to babysit so she said yes, and brought her with. She didn't even know the girls name, and the girl couldn't talk so we didn't know it. The little girl has not eaten, drinkin, or gone to the bathroom all day. I was furious. Sandy said she asked the lady multiple times if she would mind if she went to the vending machine to get some fruit snacks and water for her and the lady repetedly said no, she's fine. I did a haircut and when I was done I looked over and saw the little girl sleeping STANDING UP. dead serious. I picked up that little cutie and gave her a big hug (still sleeping) and layed her down on the bench and went and got my jacket to cover her up with.
I was really concerned so I went up to Megan and told her what was going on and we went and talked to Theresa about it. Theresa told us to wake her up and give her some food. So we bought her some fruit snacks and vitamin water.  We went out  to the bench and Megan tried wiggling her and she wouldn't move.. it was alarming, so we got Miss Linda and Miss Linda started shaking and slapping the girls face and she would not respond. AT ALL. By this time I was bawling and so was Megan. After about 5 minutes of yelling and shaking she responded. I scooped her up and gave her the biggest hug ever and gave her the fruit snacks and vitamin water. She honestly drank half the bottle in the first couple drinks. so. thirsty. She then ate the fruit snacks within 5 minutes so I went and bought her a pudding and some oreo cakesters (only junk food in the vending machine) she loved it. gobbled it right up. I sat for the last two hours and fed her and hugged her. I was so sad for her, I didn't understand how someone just didn't care whether it was her kid or not to feed her and give her something to drink!
By the time that the little girl left (5:15) I taught her that her pants were "purple" and she could point to them and say purple. I honestly think that she leaned more with me in the last 2 hours of the day then she has in the last 3 years of her life. She cried when the lady made her leave and she kept pointing to me. I was heartbroken. The lady didn't say thanks to me or care what-so-ever that the little girl leaned to say Purple.
I was upset the rest of the night. I couldn't believe that this little girl was 3 and was neglected so badly.
This is why I want to be a social worker, I want to save everyone. No one should have to live like that. It's sickening that parents don't care at all.
This goes out to all you "Teen Mom" haters. I am 18 and my daughter knows her colors, some numbers, knows what noises an animal makes, and has NEVER gone hungry or thirsty. EVER.
So shove that up your ass haters.
And God be with all the children out there with deadbeat parents.


SATURDAY I went shopping with my mom, Lilly, and Braden. Lilly and I got a pink Christmas tree. Yes, pink. It's totally awesome and I can't wait to set it up. :)
Also.... Aaron moved out Saturday.  But I am not elaborating on that right now.


SUNDAY is when I realized that happiness is only real when it is shared. I have NEVER been so lonely in my whole life. for real. I have never sat around and watched tv in the last 17 months as I have today. There is no one here coloring on the coffee table, crying, eating, spilling juice, playing babies, begging for a bath. SAD. I am not strong enough to do this. My nights to have her this week are Tuesday Wednesday Thursday and Saturday. THAT IS NOT ENOUGH. I don't know what to do.... I'm going insane. ugh. This is so tough. But what am I suppose to do? I can't give in. I refuse to live with someone that doesn't ever want to marry me. That's not the kinda girl I am, I want to get married and have more kids (someday) and if you don't love me enough to commit to me for the rest of our lives, then what the hell are we doing?

i lalalalove school

I'm having such a busy week! goodness.. Yesterday I cut and colored my nana's hair. It turned out amazing! She has never had her hair colored in a salon, she always does it herself, so this was like huge for her to come in and get it done. She loved it! Next I'm going to make her an appointment for a manicure and pedicure.. then she will really feel pampered :)

*pictures coming soon of my grandma's hair, waiting for Jade to e-mail me them :)*

Today I did Kathy's hair (Aaron's mom) That also turned out amazing! I put blonde highlights over her red-ish hair and it looked absolutely amazing and made her hair look a lot more blonde. I also cut it and gave her more layers and volume, she absolutely loved it and I know that she will be back soon!

*again, pictures are coming...*

We also had a blow-drying class today to some new techniques and methods. I have to say, I really like blow drying.. it's really like... calming. I exspecially love making curly peoples hair stick straight by just using the blowdryer and my 407 brush, they are amazed that I didn't have to touch a flat iron.
I roundbrush styled  Lori's hair today...

*...pictures......*

It's been a good night so far, we made tomato soup and grilled cheese for supper. We ate like one grilled cheese and a bite of soup and both were like "I wish we would have had pizza" So, what did we do? ORDERED PIZZZZAAA! :) Since I have lived here, in this apartment, Aaron and I have never ordered pizza. Kinda weird..

venting.

When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us. -Helen Keller

tough day. but honestly, all i have to say is i believe in fate.. and what is meant to be will always find it's way to be. God has a plan, a good plan, everything will be fine. So, it's time for me to slap a smile on my face and look for the next door of happiness that is opening for me. Life is to short to spend it fighting and crying.  

 

First full day on the clinic floor

WAS A SUCCESS! 
I tag teamed a retouch & highlights with Alysa, then did two mens haircuts! What a good start to the week :)
But I gotta tell you, my feet are killing me.. I need to get some of those insole things for arch support. I think that would really help me out. Wonder if they work good?
I'm super tired, and Chase is on in 15 minutes so unfortunatly this post is going to be short and sweet.
xoxoxox lovers.

My weekend in a nutshell

Friday: I went to dinner at Dakota Farms with Kevin and went to the movie Skyline. Dinner was great, the movie... eh, not so much. I probably wouldn't watch it again, and it had a super lame annoying ending. I had a good night though. 
Saturday: Lilly woke up at 630am and we were on the road to the farm by 730.

 These are the wind turbines right outside of Wilton. They were not moving, and I thought it looked really calming.

 This is my TEN year old brother driving my mom, my uncle, and I around...going 60mph. I was scared, but he actually did a good job.

Lilly and Trey let a kitty in Nana's house and fed it scrambled eggs and hamburger... whatta great kitty diet.

I got back from the farm around 5. I showered then Kim picked me up and we went to Chelsi's to meet up with KC, Sadie, and Chelsi to go to Bdubb's :) Later, we went to chelsi and gossiped and took pictures (What's new?) hahah

 

                            THESE ARE MY BEST FRIENDS 
 Sunday: Shopping... ALL day and supper with my family (: 

 We bummped into this Kc freak, and the occasion called for a picture in animal hats. 'nuff said.

  After three hours in EVERY shoe selling store in Bismarck I found these gems for 5 dolla at Old Navy.
That place never lets me down ;) She also got a new winter coat, hat, and 2 pairs of mittens this weekend. Spoiled much? nahhhhhh. 

"The greatest thing you will ever learn is to just to LOVE and be LOVED in return." 

Jessica "cry baby" Makeeff

That should be my new name. I am soo dang emotional, everyone at school laughs at me so much for crying over everything but for real.. this is how I have always been. It's really quite funny.. I cried today at Megan, Michelle, Jill Marie, and Mina's, graduation. All the stories everyone told just got to me, they were all so touching. Ally and Oakley were like freaking out because they couldn't even imagine what I am going to be like at our graduation.. oh no. haha, surprisingly I didn't even shed a tear at my high school graduation. Ironic. Maybe I was just so relieved that I actually did it that I couldn't cry. I think that is why my mom didn't cry either. It was a close call.
Kim and KayCee AND Sadie are home this weekend! yay, for a girls night tomorrow night! :D
Today at school I preformed my first service on a paying costumer today! I gave her a manicure, and it was awesome.. if I do say so myself :) You know what was even better? She gave me  THREE dollar tip!! I know that is not a lot but seriously, that is the first tip (of many) that I got doing what I love. How amazing of a feeling! (:  Her name was Sandy, and she was super nice! Thanks Sandy for being my first client ever ;)
Also at school this morning I helped Summer set a shampoo set for a lady named Alice. Alice knew everything. She knew what color rollers went where on her head, she knew how long to dry, how to roll the rollers, and she loved saying "I think Miss Linda should come now". It was funny. The best part of it is that while she was drying she and another little old lady name Adaline sat under the dryer and drank water (in coffee cups) and ate popcorn (that they brought). It was awesome...
Well I'm off to eat supper and go to a moviee then out to Kim's house... hope everyone else has an equally amazing  night as me.. and HAPPY FRIDAY!

the days of myspace.

I used to be Myspaced obsessed! The surveys, the comments, the bulletins, the top friends list, the hero's, the ever so famous myspace mirror picture. It is actually pathetically horrible. Facebook is so much better and so much more creep-able. I just actually saw the new myspace homepage thing, I hate when things do that. Change there look to look more like something more popular at the time. NO. Myspace should not resemble facebook. Just like Lays chip bags should not look like Doritos. Be different.
I just logged on to my Myspace account and my last comment was from February, I have no new friend requests, messages, comments, or picture comments, I used to have AT LEAST 10-15 of those every day. I wonder if there are still 14 year old's out there that are still Myspace obsessed? Like is it still a big deal with younger kids? or does everyone just use Facebook? hm.....
well in spirit of my myspace rant I, you know, took a myspace picture! (Aaron made fun of me for this)

Have a good night myspace, facebook, and blogger lovers alike - I am off to rice bowl with my bestest friend (:

I reached 360 hours last night at 8PM; do you know what that means!? That means that I was legally allowed to touch a paying guest! I love school. I start taking appointments next Monday, I am so excited to show people everything that I have learned and for the last 9 weeks of working on a doll head will pay off. Of course I am a little nervous, I mean I could potentially cut someone, chop off all there hair, burn there hair off, hahahha but I know that I won't. I feel prepared. Thank God.
Tonight at the grocery store Lillian rode in one of those truck carts for the first time. It was adorable but seriously, pushing those things are like driving a semi. They are huge and super hard to turn!

Now, here I sit watching the Biggest Loser and I have NO idea how this is like one of the top watched shows in America. IT IS SO SAD. You may ask why do I watch it? Well, I have like 4 channels and there is absolutly nothing else on at this time besides this; I will tell you I have not made it through an episode with out tearing up. I thought that I was the only weird-o who cried at 300 pound women & men running and suffering but Kim said she has never made it through an episode with out crying either... maybe this is why we are best friends we cry when we watch over weight people work out.  Why? No idea. Are we the only ones who cry every Tuesday night?
Well, it's almost time for the final weigh in I better go put down my ice cream to watch. Just kiddddding! ;)

"Every girl needs a best friend to make her smile, when she feels like she will never laugh again."

not all days are as sunny as others.

If the title of my blog site is LOVE AND HAPPINESS IS ALL I NEED.... then why am I not happy right now?
I wish all of my posts could be happy, upbeat, and cheerful all the time but unfortunately I am human and have bad days.
I once heard in a movie that all bad things happen in sets of three. Well, I am up to two, c'mon bring on the third and give me one more thing to deal with.
My quote yesterday was just perfect, I don't know why but I just feel like right now, I need to be selfish and focus on myself. I need to make ME happy. I need to do what is best for ME. I always worry about everyone else and "what if.." well what if I'm not happy? It's a rare occurrence.. but it does happen.

"be positive. be brave. look forward. be all that you can be."

mother daughter day

Today Lillian woke up at the crack of dawn, 6 am. It wouldn't have been so bad if she would have actually slept all though the night but nope, she was up ever 45 minutes couching. poor thing. At least she took a long enough nap for me to close my eyes a bit too this morning.
We went shopping today too. For the most part it was good, fun, enjoyable except for her crying from target to jcpenny to the car to allllllll the way home. She got to tired, I know this because when we got home I put her straight in the crib and she was out in a minute. Also, I was holding Lilly(who was screaming), my purse, a drink, pushing a stroller, and trying to open a door and not one, not two, but THREE people walked right by me and didn't help or offer to hold the door for me. KARMA COMES AROUND PEOPLE. Was it seriously so hard for those people to slow down their loves for 1 minute and hold the door for someone that was clearly struggling?! All I have to say is BE NICE. Do the right thing, what if that was you? wouldn't you want someone to hold the door for you? I know that I am getting all worked up over something so little, but that's my point.. holding the door open for someone is a little gesture to do to be nice. It's not hard, it doesn't take long, so stop and be nice.

"The most exciting,challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself-- And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous."
-Carrie Bradshaw

This is going to be my quote of the week..
hope everyone had a good Sunday.
peace and love.

a saturday to myself

Ahhh, my mom took Lillian to the farm to visit my grandparents today and Aaron went to Fargo to visit Tyler so I have the house to myself and NO plans until tonight! I love having days like this to myself.. just being able to sit on the couch and watch tv for longer then 3 minutes at a time. My mom told me to clean my car, and if you have seen it recently you know why. whatta messsss! Well, to bad mom that I don't want to.. people will just have to deal with the clutter and chaos for a while longer. Who knows how long...........maybe a year.
Last night I went to Life as we Know it. It was the best movie that I have been to in a long time. Although, I will be the first one to admit that I did cry a couple times. It just made me think, what if that little girl was Lilly? SO SAD. I don't want to think about it........gives me the chills.
Kim is home for the weekend so I will be seeing her today, I wish she lived here! Grand Forks is wayy to far away. Although, KayCee is coming home next weekend, I am going to Moorhead the weekend after, then it's Thanksgiving and Kim will be home (kc is going to Nebraska) then the next weekend Kayla and I are going to Grand Forks.. it's nice to have those pieces of home on the weekend. THEN IT'S LIKE ALMOST CHRISTMAS! that's insane.. this year went by super fast.. I feel like I just graduated and I feel like everyone just left for school.. not the school year is half way over?!
gooood :)
well, time for me to lay on the couch and watch movies :)
p.s. my phone broke. it sucks.

sparkle toes!

"And it's a great day to be alive
I know the sun's still shinin when I close my eyes
There's some hard times in the neighborhood
But why can't every day be just this good?"
I fed a turkey fries today. It's hard for me to believe that turkeys love living off fries and pizza burgers but hey,
whatever floats their boat.  I mean if they ever get shot and butchered up they might taste like Big Boy?
hahahhaha 

This morning Kayla shampooed and straightened my hair and I shampooed and curled hers! Then we went to Big Boy for lunch where we saw the turkeys. Then when we got back to school we learned how to do sparkle toes on each other. Which is basically glitter gel on your toes; It's awesome! 
When I got home I cooked supper and Lillian and Aaron finger painted while I cleaned. 
Here's my thought for the day: 
I've always just kinda thought I wasn't going to do this whole cosmetology thing for a couple years and then go to college and become a social worker. Today, I was teaching Kayla how to do sparkle toes and it dawned on me. Why wouldn't I want to become a learning leader?! I mean I love teaching, working, and helping people I think that it would be perfect. I asked Jackie what is all entailed in becoming a Paul Mitchell learning leader and she said you have to put in another 900 hours of job shadowing at the school you wish to lead at... I think that it is a possibility and that is going to just be another option to add to my list.  
Now, it's times for criminal minds and popcorn! :)

future president?

So, today Aaron went to MHS to get our yearbooks from last year and I walk in the door and he says,
"I got voted coolest car!!! you got voted most likely to become presidant!!" 
I mean him getting voted coolest car is not anything weird. Driving a lime green neon you would expect to win that kind of title; But future president? That's awesome...and totally unexpected. Although, all through junior high and occasionally through high school I told everyone that I was in fact going to be the president one day; I guess people actually listened. Ms. Jessica Makeeff, President of the United States of America...hm, has a nice ring to it ;)
Today I went to the gym with Chelsi too for the first time in like two months. I HATE when I do that. I go for like a month straight and lose weight and then I stop going and gain it all right back. grrrrrrrr, this time I'm sticking with it :)
Also, when I picked Lillian up from daycare she pointed up at the sky and said "blue". I was a proud momma!
Today was a great day so I will end with one of my favorite quotes ever: 
"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die tomorrow"

just another long monday...

Monday's are the worst. I think that everyone will agree! I hate going to school from 12-8pm. Lots of girls love it cause they get to sleep in after a long wild weekend, but me? I'm up at 7 no matter what day of the week it is so I rather go to school right away and be done by five then doing nothing all morning. Although, now that I say it, I do enjoy spending Monday morning with lil I would just rather have that time with her in the evening.
On the bright side of things: I got a free pair of shoes at school! Lori was wearing shoes that were a size and a half too small for her so she gave them to me cause they fit perfect! ha, how awesome :)
Hope everyone had a great start to there work week and I'll leave you with this quote for the day to get you through all the other long Monday's ahead of you:
"God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way."