WOW!!!
It's been 5 months since I posted last! oops :/ haha
I'm going to start blogging again, daily... I promise :)
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Sunday, November 20, 2011
email?!?! email!
I have gotten a ton of messages on facebook from people who love my blog. That's awesome! Some messages from my friends, but a ton from strangers that I don't know at all! Makes me feel good that people like what I am writing :) So thanks for reading everyone, I started blogging over a year ago now. Sometimes I am ambitious and blog 4 or 5 times a week and other times you don't hear from me for a month.. haha thanks for hanging in there! My profile views have almost tripled since my first blog, woohoo :)
Anyways, one lovely lady told me to set up an e-mail to go with my blog so readers can e-mail me. what an awesome idea.. so here ya go!
loveandhappinessblog@yahoo.com
My intention of this, is if you have something you would like me to write about, or a question or anything you can e-mail me.. You all know I love meeting new people. I also think I am going to post questions every once in a while and would LOVE to hear all my readers answers to the question! :)
I think that I am going to start with this:
Why are you, you?
I love thinking questions, questions that make you think about your role in this crazy world and the difference that you can make. I also love questions that help you get to know yourself better. So let's hear it... Why are you, you?! What makes you tick, what has impacted your life to make you who you are today?
Can't wait to hear your stories for once, instead of typing mine :) So, email me at loveandhappinessblog@yahoo.com...
xoxo
love and happiness
Anyways, one lovely lady told me to set up an e-mail to go with my blog so readers can e-mail me. what an awesome idea.. so here ya go!
loveandhappinessblog@yahoo.com
My intention of this, is if you have something you would like me to write about, or a question or anything you can e-mail me.. You all know I love meeting new people. I also think I am going to post questions every once in a while and would LOVE to hear all my readers answers to the question! :)
I think that I am going to start with this:
Why are you, you?
I love thinking questions, questions that make you think about your role in this crazy world and the difference that you can make. I also love questions that help you get to know yourself better. So let's hear it... Why are you, you?! What makes you tick, what has impacted your life to make you who you are today?
Can't wait to hear your stories for once, instead of typing mine :) So, email me at loveandhappinessblog@yahoo.com...
xoxo
love and happiness
Sunday blogday. ha
What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
I want to travel the world!!! Hmmm, what's holding me back? Money. I don't like talking about money, or dealing with money, or anything that has to do with money. I certainly don't ever want *money* to hold me back from anything; But truth is... I need money to travel. Now, if I was child-less (god forbid) I would go with only 10 dollars in my pocket, seriously. But things change when you have a child, you have way to much to worry about. soo... when I get some money.. you can guarantee I will be kissing under the Eiffel tower, drinking beer in Ireland, shopping in Bali, surfing in Australia, and relaxing on the beach in Bora Bora.
Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
Good Question. I am actually. I have a really hard time of letting go of things. I don't follow the rule of "Forgive and Forget". I have gotten WAY better at forgiving peoples mistakes, but I am still working on the forgetting and letting go part.. BUT specifically? Yes, I can think of one thing, or person, that I should probably stop thinking about.... siighhh...
Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
Joyfully simple, please. Worrying is the worst. That's like the question, would you rather have all the money in the world and be alone? or be poor and know what true love is? TRUE LOVE! I'm a hopeless romantic at its finest. I guess I just don't think that money can buy happiness.. but if you have love happiness will follow...and you all know how I feel about happiness.
Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
I would like to say yes. I try my hardest to always be there for my friends, to listen, to support, to offer advice (even if they don't take it), to cry with them, laugh with them, or bash on their ex boyfriend. I also always make them laugh, with my ridiculous stories and tales about things that only happen to me. I sure make their lives interesting.. I like to think... :) I do have one thing to say about my friendship abilities though, I am the worst present giver!! I always have a thousand and one "cute" ideas, but when it comes down to it I'm the friend that goes the day of the birthday to thrifty white to try to find something haha. I also have the best group of friends around. They know I'm busy with being a mom, and living on my own, and working, and going back to school, and boys, and friends, and me time.. and ahhhh! They understand that, and I am soo thankfull to have them around. <3
Which is worse, when a good friend moves away and you lose touch, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
They are equally terrible.If they moved away and you lost touch it just hurts less cause you have an "excuse" why you haven't been talking...
I want to travel the world!!! Hmmm, what's holding me back? Money. I don't like talking about money, or dealing with money, or anything that has to do with money. I certainly don't ever want *money* to hold me back from anything; But truth is... I need money to travel. Now, if I was child-less (god forbid) I would go with only 10 dollars in my pocket, seriously. But things change when you have a child, you have way to much to worry about. soo... when I get some money.. you can guarantee I will be kissing under the Eiffel tower, drinking beer in Ireland, shopping in Bali, surfing in Australia, and relaxing on the beach in Bora Bora.
Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
Good Question. I am actually. I have a really hard time of letting go of things. I don't follow the rule of "Forgive and Forget". I have gotten WAY better at forgiving peoples mistakes, but I am still working on the forgetting and letting go part.. BUT specifically? Yes, I can think of one thing, or person, that I should probably stop thinking about.... siighhh...
Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
Joyfully simple, please. Worrying is the worst. That's like the question, would you rather have all the money in the world and be alone? or be poor and know what true love is? TRUE LOVE! I'm a hopeless romantic at its finest. I guess I just don't think that money can buy happiness.. but if you have love happiness will follow...and you all know how I feel about happiness.
Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
I would like to say yes. I try my hardest to always be there for my friends, to listen, to support, to offer advice (even if they don't take it), to cry with them, laugh with them, or bash on their ex boyfriend. I also always make them laugh, with my ridiculous stories and tales about things that only happen to me. I sure make their lives interesting.. I like to think... :) I do have one thing to say about my friendship abilities though, I am the worst present giver!! I always have a thousand and one "cute" ideas, but when it comes down to it I'm the friend that goes the day of the birthday to thrifty white to try to find something haha. I also have the best group of friends around. They know I'm busy with being a mom, and living on my own, and working, and going back to school, and boys, and friends, and me time.. and ahhhh! They understand that, and I am soo thankfull to have them around. <3
Which is worse, when a good friend moves away and you lose touch, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
They are equally terrible.If they moved away and you lost touch it just hurts less cause you have an "excuse" why you haven't been talking...
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
qstns.
Are you More worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
I would rather fail at attempting to do the right thing then succeed at doing the wrong thing perfectly.
You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?
You know, this is a typical question seeing how good of a person you are. if you would have asked me a few years ago, I probably would have sat there and just listened and maybe even added a few things just so i "fit in" but now.. no. I would stick up for my friend, especially if she/he didn't do anything to deserve the gossip. I would be polite, and not stoop to their level and say You know, so and so is a very good friend of mine and I was taught if you don't have anything nice to say don't say anything at all. So, with that thanks for lunch. and I would probably leave...
If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
I tell Lillian every single day that she is beautiful and I want her to be happy. I decided that is what I want most for my children, for them to have self confidence, and good attitude towards themselves, and for them to always be happy with who they are. I also make her laugh a lot. I sing, dance, tickle her, laugh at my own jokes just to see her laugh and smile. Laughing at yourself is important, don't take anything to serious, and have fun.
What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
Most people my age? raise a daughter. I'm going to leave it at that.
How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
If the same things made everyone in the world happy that would be a boring world. I love when people have different interests in movies, tastes in music, belong to different activities. It makes life fun and it makes you accept other peoples views of "happiness".
I would rather fail at attempting to do the right thing then succeed at doing the wrong thing perfectly.
You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?
You know, this is a typical question seeing how good of a person you are. if you would have asked me a few years ago, I probably would have sat there and just listened and maybe even added a few things just so i "fit in" but now.. no. I would stick up for my friend, especially if she/he didn't do anything to deserve the gossip. I would be polite, and not stoop to their level and say You know, so and so is a very good friend of mine and I was taught if you don't have anything nice to say don't say anything at all. So, with that thanks for lunch. and I would probably leave...
If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
I tell Lillian every single day that she is beautiful and I want her to be happy. I decided that is what I want most for my children, for them to have self confidence, and good attitude towards themselves, and for them to always be happy with who they are. I also make her laugh a lot. I sing, dance, tickle her, laugh at my own jokes just to see her laugh and smile. Laughing at yourself is important, don't take anything to serious, and have fun.
What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
Most people my age? raise a daughter. I'm going to leave it at that.
How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
If the same things made everyone in the world happy that would be a boring world. I love when people have different interests in movies, tastes in music, belong to different activities. It makes life fun and it makes you accept other peoples views of "happiness".
Monday, November 14, 2011
thinking questions.
How old would you be if you didn't know how old you are?
If no one ever told me how old I was, I would look at myself, my life, and my accomplishments and think that I was around 25. Now, I don't know what it feels like to be '25' but I know that I have had more life experiences then most people that are 19. Everything in my life happened to me really extremely early, and I have had to learn a lot of life long lessons in a short period of time. But you know what? I wouldn't change it for the world. I love telling people I am 19 and they are shocked. It just goes to rule out the 'teen moms are losers' stigma that people have. Yup, I'm successful, smart, mature, not on welfare, and have a 2 year old daughter... soooo what was that about stupid slutty teen moms? nothing? Thats what i thought.
Which is worse? Failing or Never trying.
NEVER TRYING! hands down. It's like the oldest lesson in the book.. you never know if you don't try! The way I think about failure is even though you 'failed' if you learned something along the way about yourself/the future/how to do it better next time.. then it was not even a failure. Keep trying.
If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do? I actually have been thinking about this a lot lately. I can not answer for other people but I know one thing is for sure about the rest of my life.. I will spend it doing what i love, with people that make me happy. Its not all about money people, At the end of your life you are going to think more about your family, friends, vacations, cristmas memories then the amount of your paychecks. Do what you love. If you are not passionate about your job.. QUIT. Please ask yourself one question: "If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?" Because in the end its all about love and happiness.
What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
hm, I am a go-getter.. there is a lot that I would like to change. ONE thing at the top of my list is I want people to feel good about themselves. I want to give other people the self -confidence they need to make the changes they want to make in the world. I want them to feel like a million dollars. It breaks my heart when people say that they are ugly or get picked on cause they have acne and don't wear a size 2. I want to make all those people feel good about themselves. Not everyone needs to weigh 110lbs, be 5'10, and bleach blonde, blue eyes, and big boobs. Everyone is beautiful in their own way.. and I would like to help people know that about themselves. There is nothing worse then waking up in the morning and wanting to hide your body or face in fear of getting made fun of.. EMBRACE it and make yourself beautiful. So... what would I change? Societies pressure of being 'prefect'.. I want EVERYONE to feel beautiful even if society is telling them they are ugly.
If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
I'm not going to publicly answer this one, I just want everyone to think about it. You are not guaranteed to live to 95 years old. So if your answer to this question is along the lines of have kids, get married, go to church more, take a lot of vacations, tell my mom i love her... then WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!? You should be spending every minute of you life like it is your last... Tomorrow is not a promise so live today in pure happiness and surround yourself with the people that you love and do what puts a smile on your face. every day. I know sometimes it is not that easy.. but seriously challenge yourself to stop doing what you hate with people you cant stand.. do what you love with people that make you happy....
If no one ever told me how old I was, I would look at myself, my life, and my accomplishments and think that I was around 25. Now, I don't know what it feels like to be '25' but I know that I have had more life experiences then most people that are 19. Everything in my life happened to me really extremely early, and I have had to learn a lot of life long lessons in a short period of time. But you know what? I wouldn't change it for the world. I love telling people I am 19 and they are shocked. It just goes to rule out the 'teen moms are losers' stigma that people have. Yup, I'm successful, smart, mature, not on welfare, and have a 2 year old daughter... soooo what was that about stupid slutty teen moms? nothing? Thats what i thought.
Which is worse? Failing or Never trying.
NEVER TRYING! hands down. It's like the oldest lesson in the book.. you never know if you don't try! The way I think about failure is even though you 'failed' if you learned something along the way about yourself/the future/how to do it better next time.. then it was not even a failure. Keep trying.
If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do? I actually have been thinking about this a lot lately. I can not answer for other people but I know one thing is for sure about the rest of my life.. I will spend it doing what i love, with people that make me happy. Its not all about money people, At the end of your life you are going to think more about your family, friends, vacations, cristmas memories then the amount of your paychecks. Do what you love. If you are not passionate about your job.. QUIT. Please ask yourself one question: "If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?" Because in the end its all about love and happiness.
What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
hm, I am a go-getter.. there is a lot that I would like to change. ONE thing at the top of my list is I want people to feel good about themselves. I want to give other people the self -confidence they need to make the changes they want to make in the world. I want them to feel like a million dollars. It breaks my heart when people say that they are ugly or get picked on cause they have acne and don't wear a size 2. I want to make all those people feel good about themselves. Not everyone needs to weigh 110lbs, be 5'10, and bleach blonde, blue eyes, and big boobs. Everyone is beautiful in their own way.. and I would like to help people know that about themselves. There is nothing worse then waking up in the morning and wanting to hide your body or face in fear of getting made fun of.. EMBRACE it and make yourself beautiful. So... what would I change? Societies pressure of being 'prefect'.. I want EVERYONE to feel beautiful even if society is telling them they are ugly.
If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
I'm not going to publicly answer this one, I just want everyone to think about it. You are not guaranteed to live to 95 years old. So if your answer to this question is along the lines of have kids, get married, go to church more, take a lot of vacations, tell my mom i love her... then WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!? You should be spending every minute of you life like it is your last... Tomorrow is not a promise so live today in pure happiness and surround yourself with the people that you love and do what puts a smile on your face. every day. I know sometimes it is not that easy.. but seriously challenge yourself to stop doing what you hate with people you cant stand.. do what you love with people that make you happy....
since thanksgiving is right around the corner..
I am thankful for...
Lillian Joann: She changed my life more then anyone in the world will ever be able to and she has showed me a such a deep meaning for the words I love you. I will never forget the day that I heard her heartbeat. I knew that I was pregnant, I knew that meant that I was going to have a baby, but I didn't comprehend that there was a LIFE inside me. A little person growing and developing and getting ready to make her entrance into this crazy world. In those moments when the doctor was counting her heartbeats all I could think about was that everything happens for a reason, Even though I was 16 I knew that God had a plan and that everything was going to be okay. She had a rough entrance and we are both lucky to be here today, and I am soo thankful that God let me live to meet my babygirl. Every single day I feel like the luckiest mom in the world to have such a beautiful, smart, independent daughter. I can be crying, stressed out, and mad at the world but when she says "lub yew mommy" It makes EVERYTHING worth it. All the hard work in school, the struggle to find a job, the sleepless nights, it all goes away and I thank my lucky stars to be blessed with an angel.
My Best Friends:You girlies know who you are and I honestly am so thankful for you all to be in my life. I can call anyone of you at anytime of the day or night with something funny/sad/stupid and I know that you will be there. I mean seriously, KayCee and I talk almost every night on FB chat about life. We talk about boys, friends, school, the future, the latest fb drama, how things were in the past. We can talk about anything and just understand each other. It doesn't matter what we are talking about, she is always there listening and laughing and giving good advice. "Best friends are like stars, you don't always see them but you know they are always there". Little Kim, I am sooo thankful her. Honestly she is the true definition of a best friend. I go to her first and tell her everything, usually even more then she wants to hear. I know that if Kim's reaction is going to be "Jesss!!!" or "Where did you meet him at?!" when I tell her, I probably shouldn't be doing it. She has been there through all the crying, heartache, laughs, smiles, struggles and victories along the way and I will plan a wedding with her any day. Since you know, she is a princess and all ;). Then there is Chelsi, ohhh chelsi, the girl that thinks that "soon enough" is three words long. She makes my life interesting, she is the friend that can always make me laugh, and always knows how to make me smile when my day is going terrible, and always knows when I need a date at DQ. These three girls are my rocks, and I will never lose them. Thick and thin I will be there for them. I also am so thankful for my hair school lovers. I wouldn't have made it to the next chapter of my life with out them by my side. They give the best advice, know everythinggg about me, and Katie is a great cook ;) I will always have their back, and they will always have mine. They are a huge part of my life and I am sooo thankful that our paths crossed in life and I got to meet and grow with them in our career. Minions fo lyf.
My Family: Lots of people can say that I am spoiled, but I like the word blessed. I am soo thankful that my family was able to support me while I was going to school so I could dedicate myself to learning and being a mom. I am so thankful that they are supportive of all my decisions. Even though they think I am making a mistake, they will give me advice but they know at the end of the day I will do what I want and what I think is best and they will be there for me. We have our struggles, like any family does, but at the end of the day I know my parents have my back, my grandparents are proud of me, my aunts and uncles love me, and my brothers probably think I am annoying, but that is what brothers are for right? So blessed to belong to such an awesome family.
Past Boyfriends and Men: You all hurt me in some way shape or form, but I just want to say a simple thanks.. because all of you were a different chapter in my life. You guys all taught me something about myself and about life and for that I am thankful. Thanks for showing me exactly what i don't want in a relationship and for teaching me not to settle for anything less than what i deserve. When one door closes a better one always opens... such as
My Boyfriend: Justin, thank-you, thank you for everything that you do for me. You are soo supportive, sweet, and truly care about my feelings. You came around when I wasn't looking for a relationship, when I wasn't expecting someone, and I still think it is fate that we met. I mean, they always say true love finds you when you are least expecting it in places you would never think to look and I think that is true for us. You are an amazing man, you are successful, smart, funny, attractive, and out going. I have a rough past, and I am so thankful that you don't focus on the mistakes I made. You are accepting and so caring. I am so lucky to have found you and I can not wait to see what the future holds for our relationship.
Hair School: I am soooooo thankful for my experiences I had while going to cosmetology school. I learned so much about life in those 12 months. I learned not to judge anyone, just becasue someone has blue spikey hair, and 15 piercings on their face doesn't make them "weird" its called self expression. You don't judge anyone based on their looks, how they talk, walk, or where they are from. Looks can be changed, in order to get to know someone you need to look on the inside where it really matters. I learned that sometimes people that can't make their house payment will come in and drop $150 getting their hair and nails done instead of putting that towards a mortgage because it MAKES THEM FEEL GOOD. Nothing matters if you don't like the way you look. With that being said, it doesn't matter if other people like your hair color, or how you style it everyday. its about YOU... so if you like that mullet with 3 inches of new growth, then you rock it all you want becuase if you feel good thats all that matters. I learned that I can do anything I set my mind too, and I also learned that if I am going to do something I want to put my whole heart into it and be soo passionate that it hurts. Life is to short to be anything but happy and tomorrow is not guaranteed so you might as well spend your time on this earth being happy, doing what you love, and helping others along the way. I met some of my best friends at school and I would do anything for those girls. I also met so many amazing guests that shaped my thinking about a lot of topics. It also taught me that how you view yourself is how others will view you. I wore sweat pants every day in High School. Part of that was because I was pregnant and the other part was "I don't care what people think of me". I still don't care what people think.. but I challenge everyone out there that wears sweatpants and no make up everyday to DRESS UP! make yourself slide into a pair of jeans and spend 10 minutes curling your hair, you have no idea how much better you feel about yourself when you don't look like you just crawled outta bed. Big lesson: do what makes you happy, BE PASSIONATE, don't judge people, and do whatever you can to make people feel good about themselves. So thankful I went to hair school.
Playing Sports Growing Up: This is kind of a weird one but I'm serious. You learn soo much being part of a team. In the long run it doesn't matter if you were on the a team or c team or if you got playing time in the championship game. In the long run what matters is that I learned to work on a team, set goals, and follow rules. It made me work with people I didn't like, strive towards a common goal with them, and always push myself to be the best. I think you learn a lot of life long lessons by belonging to various teams, its not just about winning or losing..... but you should always still try to win ;)
Myself: Now, I am not sure where I am going with saying I am thankful for myself but its true. I love myself. I'm not being conceited, It's important to love yourself. I know that I am not perfect... farrrr farrr from perfect.. but I am me, and I love that. I love that I can make people laugh, make people feel beautiful, that I give good advice, that I am hardworking and smart. God gives people what he knows that they can handle and God obviously thinks that I am strong and determined since he always gives me a full plate of problems/blessings to deal with. I wouldn't have it any other way. My friends are always like "only you Jess, that doesn't ever happen to other people" and I catch myself saying that too.. but I know why things happen to me that don't happen to other people. I am not scared, I am not shy, and I am accepting of everyone and everything. I meet a lot of people because I am open to new opportunities, I find myself in strange situations because I am not scared of trying new things. There are blessings, and new opportunities alllll around you you just have to open your eyes and your heart and be ready for them when they arise. You also have to be aware of your surroundings, aware of other peoples feelings, and really in tune and in love with yourself. When you do... you will have just as many crazy things happen to you. I promise.
Now, I am thankful for A LOT more in life. I am thankful for my health, my job, money, food, a roof over my head, a car, my freedom..... the list goes on. One of my best friends Jade told me this about 8 months ago and ever since then I think about it a lot... You should too.
"What if you woke up in the morning with only the things that you thanked God for the night before... what would you have?"
Love & Happiness
XOXOX
Lillian Joann: She changed my life more then anyone in the world will ever be able to and she has showed me a such a deep meaning for the words I love you. I will never forget the day that I heard her heartbeat. I knew that I was pregnant, I knew that meant that I was going to have a baby, but I didn't comprehend that there was a LIFE inside me. A little person growing and developing and getting ready to make her entrance into this crazy world. In those moments when the doctor was counting her heartbeats all I could think about was that everything happens for a reason, Even though I was 16 I knew that God had a plan and that everything was going to be okay. She had a rough entrance and we are both lucky to be here today, and I am soo thankful that God let me live to meet my babygirl. Every single day I feel like the luckiest mom in the world to have such a beautiful, smart, independent daughter. I can be crying, stressed out, and mad at the world but when she says "lub yew mommy" It makes EVERYTHING worth it. All the hard work in school, the struggle to find a job, the sleepless nights, it all goes away and I thank my lucky stars to be blessed with an angel.
My Best Friends:You girlies know who you are and I honestly am so thankful for you all to be in my life. I can call anyone of you at anytime of the day or night with something funny/sad/stupid and I know that you will be there. I mean seriously, KayCee and I talk almost every night on FB chat about life. We talk about boys, friends, school, the future, the latest fb drama, how things were in the past. We can talk about anything and just understand each other. It doesn't matter what we are talking about, she is always there listening and laughing and giving good advice. "Best friends are like stars, you don't always see them but you know they are always there". Little Kim, I am sooo thankful her. Honestly she is the true definition of a best friend. I go to her first and tell her everything, usually even more then she wants to hear. I know that if Kim's reaction is going to be "Jesss!!!" or "Where did you meet him at?!" when I tell her, I probably shouldn't be doing it. She has been there through all the crying, heartache, laughs, smiles, struggles and victories along the way and I will plan a wedding with her any day. Since you know, she is a princess and all ;). Then there is Chelsi, ohhh chelsi, the girl that thinks that "soon enough" is three words long. She makes my life interesting, she is the friend that can always make me laugh, and always knows how to make me smile when my day is going terrible, and always knows when I need a date at DQ. These three girls are my rocks, and I will never lose them. Thick and thin I will be there for them. I also am so thankful for my hair school lovers. I wouldn't have made it to the next chapter of my life with out them by my side. They give the best advice, know everythinggg about me, and Katie is a great cook ;) I will always have their back, and they will always have mine. They are a huge part of my life and I am sooo thankful that our paths crossed in life and I got to meet and grow with them in our career. Minions fo lyf.
My Family: Lots of people can say that I am spoiled, but I like the word blessed. I am soo thankful that my family was able to support me while I was going to school so I could dedicate myself to learning and being a mom. I am so thankful that they are supportive of all my decisions. Even though they think I am making a mistake, they will give me advice but they know at the end of the day I will do what I want and what I think is best and they will be there for me. We have our struggles, like any family does, but at the end of the day I know my parents have my back, my grandparents are proud of me, my aunts and uncles love me, and my brothers probably think I am annoying, but that is what brothers are for right? So blessed to belong to such an awesome family.
Past Boyfriends and Men: You all hurt me in some way shape or form, but I just want to say a simple thanks.. because all of you were a different chapter in my life. You guys all taught me something about myself and about life and for that I am thankful. Thanks for showing me exactly what i don't want in a relationship and for teaching me not to settle for anything less than what i deserve. When one door closes a better one always opens... such as
My Boyfriend: Justin, thank-you, thank you for everything that you do for me. You are soo supportive, sweet, and truly care about my feelings. You came around when I wasn't looking for a relationship, when I wasn't expecting someone, and I still think it is fate that we met. I mean, they always say true love finds you when you are least expecting it in places you would never think to look and I think that is true for us. You are an amazing man, you are successful, smart, funny, attractive, and out going. I have a rough past, and I am so thankful that you don't focus on the mistakes I made. You are accepting and so caring. I am so lucky to have found you and I can not wait to see what the future holds for our relationship.
Hair School: I am soooooo thankful for my experiences I had while going to cosmetology school. I learned so much about life in those 12 months. I learned not to judge anyone, just becasue someone has blue spikey hair, and 15 piercings on their face doesn't make them "weird" its called self expression. You don't judge anyone based on their looks, how they talk, walk, or where they are from. Looks can be changed, in order to get to know someone you need to look on the inside where it really matters. I learned that sometimes people that can't make their house payment will come in and drop $150 getting their hair and nails done instead of putting that towards a mortgage because it MAKES THEM FEEL GOOD. Nothing matters if you don't like the way you look. With that being said, it doesn't matter if other people like your hair color, or how you style it everyday. its about YOU... so if you like that mullet with 3 inches of new growth, then you rock it all you want becuase if you feel good thats all that matters. I learned that I can do anything I set my mind too, and I also learned that if I am going to do something I want to put my whole heart into it and be soo passionate that it hurts. Life is to short to be anything but happy and tomorrow is not guaranteed so you might as well spend your time on this earth being happy, doing what you love, and helping others along the way. I met some of my best friends at school and I would do anything for those girls. I also met so many amazing guests that shaped my thinking about a lot of topics. It also taught me that how you view yourself is how others will view you. I wore sweat pants every day in High School. Part of that was because I was pregnant and the other part was "I don't care what people think of me". I still don't care what people think.. but I challenge everyone out there that wears sweatpants and no make up everyday to DRESS UP! make yourself slide into a pair of jeans and spend 10 minutes curling your hair, you have no idea how much better you feel about yourself when you don't look like you just crawled outta bed. Big lesson: do what makes you happy, BE PASSIONATE, don't judge people, and do whatever you can to make people feel good about themselves. So thankful I went to hair school.
Playing Sports Growing Up: This is kind of a weird one but I'm serious. You learn soo much being part of a team. In the long run it doesn't matter if you were on the a team or c team or if you got playing time in the championship game. In the long run what matters is that I learned to work on a team, set goals, and follow rules. It made me work with people I didn't like, strive towards a common goal with them, and always push myself to be the best. I think you learn a lot of life long lessons by belonging to various teams, its not just about winning or losing..... but you should always still try to win ;)
Myself: Now, I am not sure where I am going with saying I am thankful for myself but its true. I love myself. I'm not being conceited, It's important to love yourself. I know that I am not perfect... farrrr farrr from perfect.. but I am me, and I love that. I love that I can make people laugh, make people feel beautiful, that I give good advice, that I am hardworking and smart. God gives people what he knows that they can handle and God obviously thinks that I am strong and determined since he always gives me a full plate of problems/blessings to deal with. I wouldn't have it any other way. My friends are always like "only you Jess, that doesn't ever happen to other people" and I catch myself saying that too.. but I know why things happen to me that don't happen to other people. I am not scared, I am not shy, and I am accepting of everyone and everything. I meet a lot of people because I am open to new opportunities, I find myself in strange situations because I am not scared of trying new things. There are blessings, and new opportunities alllll around you you just have to open your eyes and your heart and be ready for them when they arise. You also have to be aware of your surroundings, aware of other peoples feelings, and really in tune and in love with yourself. When you do... you will have just as many crazy things happen to you. I promise.
Now, I am thankful for A LOT more in life. I am thankful for my health, my job, money, food, a roof over my head, a car, my freedom..... the list goes on. One of my best friends Jade told me this about 8 months ago and ever since then I think about it a lot... You should too.
"What if you woke up in the morning with only the things that you thanked God for the night before... what would you have?"
Love & Happiness
XOXOX
Friday, October 28, 2011
friday night at home..alone.. i'm totally awesome ;)
Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on their bed?
I have :)
Are you wearing any make up right now?
barely any.. lol laaazzzyyyy friday night :)
Do you always find it cute when a girl/guy calls you babe/baby?
i do!
What is the last non-alcoholic drink you had?
water with orange mio in it!
How many times have you dyed your hair?
oh lord, im a hair stylist... sooo 2398409? ;)
Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?
our kiss was outside, so people driving by?
Would you prefer a thunderstorm or for it to be snowing?
thunderstorm!
Are you open about your feelings or closed off?
I used to be a lot more open then I am now... I guess when so many people just don't care how you feel you decide to stop telling them. BUT who am I kidding, everyone usually knows how I feel about everything ha
Are you in a good mood right now?
I am :)
What color is the shirt your wearing right now?
teaaal.
Will this weekend be a good one?
I just got back from Justins, and I'm going to the farm tomorrow for the weekend.. so yes :)
What was the last movie you watched? With who?
hmmm, tom and jerry.. Lilly.
Are you excited for anything?
LOTS!
Is there someone you want to fight?
ha, noo.
What was the first thing you did this morning?
hmm, kissed someone :)
What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
yikes, I don't even know... a girly check up? haha
Do you have any bruises on you?
probably.
How is your hair?
in a pony.. and not a midget pony.. its getting long enough for a good one.. THANK GOD!
Will you be up before seven am tomorrow?
hellnooo
Did you speak to your mother today?
yes i did
What's bothering you right now?
hmm, some stuff.
Do you have secrets that no one knows?
Kim knows everything. EVERYTHING haha probably more then she wants to know.
Day been rough?
nahhh :)
You have to walk home from school, how long does it take?
school? whats that? ;)
Have you kissed the last male you sent a text to?
yupper.
What are you doing?
this, and eating halloween candy :D
Are you in a complicated relationship?
relationships are only complicated if you make them complicated.
Ever cry hours and hours over a guy?
never again will i.
Don't you just wish all boys would fall off the planet?
nope.
Do you think your past mistakes made you into a better person?
they for sure have, everything that has happened has made me who i am..
Can you honestly say that at this point in time you're happy with the way things are?
yes!
Have you ever kissed someones who's name started with a R?
i don't feel like thinking about all the boys ive kissed. ha
Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
do you know who i am?
Does it bother you when your friends bring up your past mistakes?
i have good friends.. they only bring up allll the funny ones hah
Do you think people think bad things about you?
who the effff cares!
Do you even believe in love?
i feel terribly sorry for anyone that doesn't believe in love..
Do you label people a lot?
it happens.
Do you blush easily?
i don't.
Would you take someone back if they cheated on you?
no. i would never. dirty boys. and stupid girls.
Do you like when people play with your hair?
yes yes yes!!
Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
der der der
Are you a couple with the last person you kissed?
yes'm
Could you date someone taller then you?
yes?
How's your heart lately?
my heart is just how i want it.. happy.
Would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh?
no wayy..
What are you listening to right now?
the interstat... i am on my deck. with lots of blankies and hot chocolate... mmm love nights like this :)
Do you hate the last guy/girl you were talking to?
nooo!
Last time you had cried?
ehhh, i dont actually remember..
Fess up, who was your New Years kiss?
i probably didnt have one. you are jealous, i know.
Have you ever felt replaced?
you have the power to decide how you feel, so if you make yourself feel "replaced" then that is your own problem.
When was your last kiss?
umm 3 hours ago?
Do you like anyone?
yeahhhhhhhhhhh.... :)
Do you like to cuddle?
LOVE.
You like hugs?
LOVE.
How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
hmm, not often... but i think before i speak.
What woke you up this morning?
a kiss :)
Are you on good or bad terms with the the last person you dated?
good.
Would you fall apart if that last person you kissed walked out of your life?
besides losing a child nothing would make me "fall apart"... but i don't wanna think about it.
Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can’t?
no..
The last person kissed? Did his/her name start with A,B,D,J,L,R,S,V,Z?
yepp.. J
Is there anyone you cannot go a day without talking to?
Kimmmyyyy.... <3 and lil
Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms?
love that feeling. lovee.
Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
of course there is!
Are you parents together or separated?
togetha
What's the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word, drama?
stupid..?
Would you ever let a girl/boy put you through hell and back?
I hate this question. once again, YOU decide how you feel... I will never allow myself to feel like I was to hell nad back again. only looking forward.
Did you ever think you would ever like the guy you are currently with?
haaaa, no, wasn't even going to meet him :p haha
Is your current hair color your natural hair color?
yeah... righttt...
Are you sick of relationships?
noo. i like seeing people happy :)
What is your biggest fear about making a total commitment to someone?
heartbreak.. obviously.. but you can't be afraid of getting your heartbroken.. you just gotta live and be honest and most importantly love.. and you will get what you deserve in life.
When you like someone, does it show?
i suppose..
Is there anyone who will always have a place in your heart?
absolutely!
How would you feel if you were dating the person you like?
i am..
Anyone of the opposite sex you trust with everything?
everything? nope... maybe one day.
Did you sleep in your own bed last night?
noo.. haha
Don't you love looking back on good times?
haha loveee it!
Honestly, have you ever been in love?
romantically? I'm going to go with yes, I have loved someone.. but it wasn't true love, because true love never dies.
I have :)
Are you wearing any make up right now?
barely any.. lol laaazzzyyyy friday night :)
Do you always find it cute when a girl/guy calls you babe/baby?
i do!
What is the last non-alcoholic drink you had?
water with orange mio in it!
How many times have you dyed your hair?
oh lord, im a hair stylist... sooo 2398409? ;)
Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?
our kiss was outside, so people driving by?
Would you prefer a thunderstorm or for it to be snowing?
thunderstorm!
Are you open about your feelings or closed off?
I used to be a lot more open then I am now... I guess when so many people just don't care how you feel you decide to stop telling them. BUT who am I kidding, everyone usually knows how I feel about everything ha
Are you in a good mood right now?
I am :)
What color is the shirt your wearing right now?
teaaal.
Will this weekend be a good one?
I just got back from Justins, and I'm going to the farm tomorrow for the weekend.. so yes :)
What was the last movie you watched? With who?
hmmm, tom and jerry.. Lilly.
Are you excited for anything?
LOTS!
Is there someone you want to fight?
ha, noo.
What was the first thing you did this morning?
hmm, kissed someone :)
What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
yikes, I don't even know... a girly check up? haha
Do you have any bruises on you?
probably.
How is your hair?
in a pony.. and not a midget pony.. its getting long enough for a good one.. THANK GOD!
Will you be up before seven am tomorrow?
hellnooo
Did you speak to your mother today?
yes i did
What's bothering you right now?
hmm, some stuff.
Do you have secrets that no one knows?
Kim knows everything. EVERYTHING haha probably more then she wants to know.
Day been rough?
nahhh :)
You have to walk home from school, how long does it take?
school? whats that? ;)
Have you kissed the last male you sent a text to?
yupper.
What are you doing?
this, and eating halloween candy :D
Are you in a complicated relationship?
relationships are only complicated if you make them complicated.
Ever cry hours and hours over a guy?
never again will i.
Don't you just wish all boys would fall off the planet?
nope.
Do you think your past mistakes made you into a better person?
they for sure have, everything that has happened has made me who i am..
Can you honestly say that at this point in time you're happy with the way things are?
yes!
Have you ever kissed someones who's name started with a R?
i don't feel like thinking about all the boys ive kissed. ha
Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
do you know who i am?
Does it bother you when your friends bring up your past mistakes?
i have good friends.. they only bring up allll the funny ones hah
Do you think people think bad things about you?
who the effff cares!
Do you even believe in love?
i feel terribly sorry for anyone that doesn't believe in love..
Do you label people a lot?
it happens.
Do you blush easily?
i don't.
Would you take someone back if they cheated on you?
no. i would never. dirty boys. and stupid girls.
Do you like when people play with your hair?
yes yes yes!!
Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
der der der
Are you a couple with the last person you kissed?
yes'm
Could you date someone taller then you?
yes?
How's your heart lately?
my heart is just how i want it.. happy.
Would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh?
no wayy..
What are you listening to right now?
the interstat... i am on my deck. with lots of blankies and hot chocolate... mmm love nights like this :)
Do you hate the last guy/girl you were talking to?
nooo!
Last time you had cried?
ehhh, i dont actually remember..
Fess up, who was your New Years kiss?
i probably didnt have one. you are jealous, i know.
Have you ever felt replaced?
you have the power to decide how you feel, so if you make yourself feel "replaced" then that is your own problem.
When was your last kiss?
umm 3 hours ago?
Do you like anyone?
yeahhhhhhhhhhh.... :)
Do you like to cuddle?
LOVE.
You like hugs?
LOVE.
How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
hmm, not often... but i think before i speak.
What woke you up this morning?
a kiss :)
Are you on good or bad terms with the the last person you dated?
good.
Would you fall apart if that last person you kissed walked out of your life?
besides losing a child nothing would make me "fall apart"... but i don't wanna think about it.
Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can’t?
no..
The last person kissed? Did his/her name start with A,B,D,J,L,R,S,V,Z?
yepp.. J
Is there anyone you cannot go a day without talking to?
Kimmmyyyy.... <3 and lil
Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms?
love that feeling. lovee.
Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
of course there is!
Are you parents together or separated?
togetha
What's the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word, drama?
stupid..?
Would you ever let a girl/boy put you through hell and back?
I hate this question. once again, YOU decide how you feel... I will never allow myself to feel like I was to hell nad back again. only looking forward.
Did you ever think you would ever like the guy you are currently with?
haaaa, no, wasn't even going to meet him :p haha
Is your current hair color your natural hair color?
yeah... righttt...
Are you sick of relationships?
noo. i like seeing people happy :)
What is your biggest fear about making a total commitment to someone?
heartbreak.. obviously.. but you can't be afraid of getting your heartbroken.. you just gotta live and be honest and most importantly love.. and you will get what you deserve in life.
When you like someone, does it show?
i suppose..
Is there anyone who will always have a place in your heart?
absolutely!
How would you feel if you were dating the person you like?
i am..
Anyone of the opposite sex you trust with everything?
everything? nope... maybe one day.
Did you sleep in your own bed last night?
noo.. haha
Don't you love looking back on good times?
haha loveee it!
Honestly, have you ever been in love?
romantically? I'm going to go with yes, I have loved someone.. but it wasn't true love, because true love never dies.
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