I am thankful for...
Lillian Joann: She changed my life more then anyone in the world will ever be able to and she has showed me a such a deep meaning for the words I love you. I will never forget the day that I heard her heartbeat. I knew that I was pregnant, I knew that meant that I was going to have a baby, but I didn't comprehend that there was a LIFE inside me. A little person growing and developing and getting ready to make her entrance into this crazy world. In those moments when the doctor was counting her heartbeats all I could think about was that everything happens for a reason, Even though I was 16 I knew that God had a plan and that everything was going to be okay. She had a rough entrance and we are both lucky to be here today, and I am soo thankful that God let me live to meet my babygirl. Every single day I feel like the luckiest mom in the world to have such a beautiful, smart, independent daughter. I can be crying, stressed out, and mad at the world but when she says "lub yew mommy" It makes EVERYTHING worth it. All the hard work in school, the struggle to find a job, the sleepless nights, it all goes away and I thank my lucky stars to be blessed with an angel.
My Best Friends:You girlies know who you are and I honestly am so thankful for you all to be in my life. I can call anyone of you at anytime of the day or night with something funny/sad/stupid and I know that you will be there. I mean seriously, KayCee and I talk almost every night on FB chat about life. We talk about boys, friends, school, the future, the latest fb drama, how things were in the past. We can talk about anything and just understand each other. It doesn't matter what we are talking about, she is always there listening and laughing and giving good advice. "Best friends are like stars, you don't always see them but you know they are always there". Little Kim, I am sooo thankful her. Honestly she is the true definition of a best friend. I go to her first and tell her everything, usually even more then she wants to hear. I know that if Kim's reaction is going to be "Jesss!!!" or "Where did you meet him at?!" when I tell her, I probably shouldn't be doing it. She has been there through all the crying, heartache, laughs, smiles, struggles and victories along the way and I will plan a wedding with her any day. Since you know, she is a princess and all ;). Then there is Chelsi, ohhh chelsi, the girl that thinks that "soon enough" is three words long. She makes my life interesting, she is the friend that can always make me laugh, and always knows how to make me smile when my day is going terrible, and always knows when I need a date at DQ. These three girls are my rocks, and I will never lose them. Thick and thin I will be there for them. I also am so thankful for my hair school lovers. I wouldn't have made it to the next chapter of my life with out them by my side. They give the best advice, know everythinggg about me, and Katie is a great cook ;) I will always have their back, and they will always have mine. They are a huge part of my life and I am sooo thankful that our paths crossed in life and I got to meet and grow with them in our career. Minions fo lyf.
My Family: Lots of people can say that I am spoiled, but I like the word blessed. I am soo thankful that my family was able to support me while I was going to school so I could dedicate myself to learning and being a mom. I am so thankful that they are supportive of all my decisions. Even though they think I am making a mistake, they will give me advice but they know at the end of the day I will do what I want and what I think is best and they will be there for me. We have our struggles, like any family does, but at the end of the day I know my parents have my back, my grandparents are proud of me, my aunts and uncles love me, and my brothers probably think I am annoying, but that is what brothers are for right? So blessed to belong to such an awesome family.
Past Boyfriends and Men: You all hurt me in some way shape or form, but I just want to say a simple thanks.. because all of you were a different chapter in my life. You guys all taught me something about myself and about life and for that I am thankful. Thanks for showing me exactly what i don't want in a relationship and for teaching me not to settle for anything less than what i deserve. When one door closes a better one always opens... such as
My Boyfriend: Justin, thank-you, thank you for everything that you do for me. You are soo supportive, sweet, and truly care about my feelings. You came around when I wasn't looking for a relationship, when I wasn't expecting someone, and I still think it is fate that we met. I mean, they always say true love finds you when you are least expecting it in places you would never think to look and I think that is true for us. You are an amazing man, you are successful, smart, funny, attractive, and out going. I have a rough past, and I am so thankful that you don't focus on the mistakes I made. You are accepting and so caring. I am so lucky to have found you and I can not wait to see what the future holds for our relationship.
Hair School: I am soooooo thankful for my experiences I had while going to cosmetology school. I learned so much about life in those 12 months. I learned not to judge anyone, just becasue someone has blue spikey hair, and 15 piercings on their face doesn't make them "weird" its called self expression. You don't judge anyone based on their looks, how they talk, walk, or where they are from. Looks can be changed, in order to get to know someone you need to look on the inside where it really matters. I learned that sometimes people that can't make their house payment will come in and drop $150 getting their hair and nails done instead of putting that towards a mortgage because it MAKES THEM FEEL GOOD. Nothing matters if you don't like the way you look. With that being said, it doesn't matter if other people like your hair color, or how you style it everyday. its about YOU... so if you like that mullet with 3 inches of new growth, then you rock it all you want becuase if you feel good thats all that matters. I learned that I can do anything I set my mind too, and I also learned that if I am going to do something I want to put my whole heart into it and be soo passionate that it hurts. Life is to short to be anything but happy and tomorrow is not guaranteed so you might as well spend your time on this earth being happy, doing what you love, and helping others along the way. I met some of my best friends at school and I would do anything for those girls. I also met so many amazing guests that shaped my thinking about a lot of topics. It also taught me that how you view yourself is how others will view you. I wore sweat pants every day in High School. Part of that was because I was pregnant and the other part was "I don't care what people think of me". I still don't care what people think.. but I challenge everyone out there that wears sweatpants and no make up everyday to DRESS UP! make yourself slide into a pair of jeans and spend 10 minutes curling your hair, you have no idea how much better you feel about yourself when you don't look like you just crawled outta bed. Big lesson: do what makes you happy, BE PASSIONATE, don't judge people, and do whatever you can to make people feel good about themselves. So thankful I went to hair school.
Playing Sports Growing Up: This is kind of a weird one but I'm serious. You learn soo much being part of a team. In the long run it doesn't matter if you were on the a team or c team or if you got playing time in the championship game. In the long run what matters is that I learned to work on a team, set goals, and follow rules. It made me work with people I didn't like, strive towards a common goal with them, and always push myself to be the best. I think you learn a lot of life long lessons by belonging to various teams, its not just about winning or losing..... but you should always still try to win ;)
Myself: Now, I am not sure where I am going with saying I am thankful for myself but its true. I love myself. I'm not being conceited, It's important to love yourself. I know that I am not perfect... farrrr farrr from perfect.. but I am me, and I love that. I love that I can make people laugh, make people feel beautiful, that I give good advice, that I am hardworking and smart. God gives people what he knows that they can handle and God obviously thinks that I am strong and determined since he always gives me a full plate of problems/blessings to deal with. I wouldn't have it any other way. My friends are always like "only you Jess, that doesn't ever happen to other people" and I catch myself saying that too.. but I know why things happen to me that don't happen to other people. I am not scared, I am not shy, and I am accepting of everyone and everything. I meet a lot of people because I am open to new opportunities, I find myself in strange situations because I am not scared of trying new things. There are blessings, and new opportunities alllll around you you just have to open your eyes and your heart and be ready for them when they arise. You also have to be aware of your surroundings, aware of other peoples feelings, and really in tune and in love with yourself. When you do... you will have just as many crazy things happen to you. I promise.
Now, I am thankful for A LOT more in life. I am thankful for my health, my job, money, food, a roof over my head, a car, my freedom..... the list goes on. One of my best friends Jade told me this about 8 months ago and ever since then I think about it a lot... You should too.
"What if you woke up in the morning with only the things that you thanked God for the night before... what would you have?"
Love & Happiness
XOXOX
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