But things happen to me that don't happen to other people. I don't know if it is because I am so open for adventure and so eager to learn new things or if it is luck or destiny or fate or karma or unlucky-ness, or misery but this last week has been rough.
I just can't catch a break.
Last thursday I left for Billings with my family, Lillian had the flu and puked the whole way there, the whole time we were there, and the whole way back.
My grandparents gave me their car to go shopping in Billings to take a break from taking care of my sick little girl. I went to Ross, got a shoe stuck on my foot. Tried to get it off for like 10 minutes before a stanger came up to me and said they were cute. I asked her to help me get it off and after like 5 minutes of her struggling she got them off.
Took Lillian to the ER for 6 hours on Sunday night when we got home. They helped me re-hydrate her and sent us back home.
My car keys have been lost since Monday. Can't find them anywhere in my house. My purse, all my money, my school stuff, my phone charger, lots of clothes, are all locked in my car and I am driving my parents car.
I got terribly sick and had to miss another day of school to rest all afternoon and take care of myself, I still am not feeling well but I can't miss anymore..
I went to walmart when I left school early on tuesday to get a movie to watch while i rested and got better. I was walking in and noticed a woman arguing with the cashier about not having enough money to pay for milk. I just walked by. After I walked by I was sooo pissed at myself that I didn't offer to pay. What if that would have been my grandma?! I was like yelling at myself inside my head about how terrible it was that I didn't help her. So I grabbed my movie and decided I would just go get a carton of milk and if she was in the front of Wal mart I would give it to her. When I got closer the the produce section I saw her sitting on a bench closer to the door. She looked pissed off at the world. So I grabbed a bundle of grocery store flowers and paid for my milk movie and the flowers. I went up to her with the milk and flowers and said "mam, I noticed you were having a rough day.." before I had a chance to finish she started bawling and collapsed into a hunched over position.. through her muffled cries I heard her telling me that today was the 10 year anniversy of when her husband passed away of lung cancer. She hasn't gotten flowers since he died.. I put my hand on her back and got really teary eyed.. she stood up and gave me the tightest hug ever as I felt her tears rolling down my arm. She said thank you over and over to me and couldn't believe that I would do this for a stranger. She told me I was an angel and She was so blessed we crossed paths. She said she had never been this happy in a very long time. I stood there with tears in my eyes wondering how this is all happening to me as she was smelling the flowers and crying and people were staring at us not understanding the amazing moment I just had with a lady.. I didn't and still don't even know her name... But I do know she is probably still talking about me and that was the greatest thing to happen to her in years...
Today I got pulled over for swerving. got let go with a warning cause I told him I was late for school.
Today I forgot I didn't have money so I got my hair done at school. Got the bill, went to get my money, realized all my money is locked in my car, at my apartment, called my mom and she couldn't bring me any until after 5. Ally loaned me the money.
Tonight Justin told me he didn't want to see me anymore.
Tonight I came home to an empty lonely apartment. I crawled into bed and there was one of Lillians dolls in there. I chose not to cry myself to sleep..
Friday I graduate. I completed Paul Mitchell Honors in cutting coloring and make up.It needs to be turned in tomorrow. Its locked in my car.
So here I am.
I think thats all that happened in the last 5 days.
Life happens.
Some is it is funny, some of it is sad. some of it stupid. Some of it amazing.
Life happens.
I am not miserable. I am not depressed. I don't hate my life, school, lilly, my family, my friends, or the people thathave hurt me.
So don't think that.
I just wish I could catch a break...
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